LOST THE LOVE OF MY LIFE...

as some of you know my wife was battling cancer for some time(diagnosed in 2010 and "declared" cancer free 6 months later) well, it came back with a vengence,not even chemo could stop it and she didn't have enough weight on for clinical trials,beta blockers and such. so they sent her home from MD Anderson last friday and told her to concentrate on gaining weight,but she had no appetite.they prescribed her some meds to increase her appetite and she was going to start those saturday morning. friday night she was calling to me from the den,she couldn't get up and to my horror had vomited blood.needless to say ambulance was called and she was rushed to icu,where they took some scans. the tumor had wrapped itself around some of her internal organs and her aorta causing her to bleed.transfusions were started but couldn't keep up with the loss.(at one point they went in and patched what they could but the area was fragile) her pain was increasing and we increased her meds.i called the kids to come quickly.my oldest son flew in from offshore and while my wife was still lucid we said our goodbyes and poured our hearts out.monitors and iv's were removed and we had her tranfered to a hospice facility where they gave her 30ml. of morpine an hour to kill her pain (she never shed a tear with all that pain)downside of that much morphine though, is she pretty much was out of it at this point,but she seemed comfortable).with her kids and my self at her side she drew her last breath. (9am friday morning) as you can imagine it was an awful week for our family (taking turns at her bedside 24/7).wanted to let my friends and brothers on the forum to know and please send prayers to my family and for my wife,it's going to be tough sledding for awhile. her name-Erin,a devoted aggie mom,the most caring soul you'll ever meet,and tough too. her dodctor's and nurse's were amazed how strong she was."most people with a blood pressure that low are unconscious".we basically had to tell her it was alright to let go(,she was so worried about us) but that doesn't suprise me at all.


R.I.P. ERIN MARIE BALDWIN and GIGEM'

I have been a stranger to the site for a while as we have all been strugling thru the last few years. I am so sorry to hear of your loss..... May the Lord bring you the strength to get through every day, ( God wont give you more than you can handle, but he gets close) When I lost Michael at 19 about 4 years ago , we wonder what its all about?

I pray you have a good church and friends, They will get you through this sad time.

God Bless you brother...

Paul
 
Sorry for your loss and may god be with you and your family.
 
Thanks,everyone....we did a balloon release today (with a note attached). I was stunned at how many showed up,I never realized she had so many caring friends:)
 

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I have been a stranger to the site for a while as we have all been strugling thru the last few years. I am so sorry to hear of your loss..... May the Lord bring you the strength to get through every day, ( God wont give you more than you can handle, but he gets close) When I lost Michael at 19 about 4 years ago , we wonder what its all about?

I pray you have a good church and friends, They will get you through this sad time.

God Bless you brother...

Paul

Amen, I pray you have faith in our Lord as those that do not have nothing to cling to and no where to go for real peace. May you and your family find real peace with Jesus Christ our true Lord.
 
I am so sorry for your loss. I just saw this and was devastated. I have been married 41 years and cannot imagine something like this. I hope to meet you some day Scott. From one long time member to another, my wife and I will pray for you and yours. Our love is sent.
 
Thanks again,everyone. Taking it one day at a time. We had been together 38 years,married 31.:(
 

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Very sorry to hear that man, may she rest in peace my families prayers are with you.
 
my prayers go out to you , its difficult to handle , but let your close friends help, it takes some of the pain away, god bless you sir
 
Much respect to you. I do understand what you are goin thru. I am 34 years old, & my wife also passed away march 5 this year. We have. 2 girls together ages 5&3. We were together 14 years, & married 8 of those years. She passes from acute liver failure. Doctors couldn't figure out why. She never had a drink, smoke, or any type if drug a day in her life. It was hard for me because she was dying right in front of my eyes over a 3 week span, and there was nothing I could do to save her. I feel so lost without her. And my kids & I are at a real vulnerable time in our lives right now. My prayers goes out to u and your kids. May God give you the strength you need to lean& depend on him to "trust the process" that he has prepared you to go thru.


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The hardest decision I ever had to make in my entire life, and one that still affects me mentally today, is the decision I had to make whn the doctors left it in my hands to keep her on life support, or to pull the plug because there were nothin else they could do for her..


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The hardest decision I ever had to make in my entire life, and one that still affects me mentally today, is the decision I had to make whn the doctors left it in my hands to keep her on life support, or to pull the plug because there were nothin else they could do for her..


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As you know...just one day at a time. My wife said " no life support". The kids and I watched her take her last breaths,that was tough. Prayers to you and yours.
 
I hate cancer!! Always takes great people away to early! I am sorry to hear about this and hope you and your family find peace and happiness in all of this sadness.
 
If u ever need to talk let me know. With all due respect I would never compare the loss u have had to mine, but it's good to have somone to talk to who dealing with similar experiences..


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