For all those of you who've been a friend to me over the years on this forum and the NFFF, I'd just like to explain why I've not been around (as) much lately.
Quite honestly, my whole life got kinda turned around financially and it's affected alot of aspects of how my time is spent..... When you go from an environment of stability to a condition of "red alert" you spend alot of time scrambling...which is what I've been doing.... Between getting a resume' together and renewing my contacts in order to find a gig, it can be a bit unnerving and time consuming as well.. So I've been changing my hours and runnin' around like a chicken..... (u get it)....
The situation has been a bit rough, mostly because I have the emotional make-up of a poet and artist... Consequently, as these are not the most objective attributes, my turmoil becomes internalized and I worry alot..... That's just the way I am..... It sucks. But, I have a nice support network.... which includes many of you, too... Thanks.
I just didn't wish to appear unappreciative or give the impression that the company of this group is unwanted.... It's simply been something that I've needed to get worked out, both jobwise and in reference to my inner demons....
It's been 15 years since I've had concerns of these kinds.... And I didn't think I'd ever have them again.... When you've been used to living at the top of the food chain, revelations and events of this nature really do bring you down to earth again....But, the events of last few days have given (me) time to reflect on my position and provided access to a more centered perspective on what matters.... Also a better view on what's taking place around me in the lives of others...
Thankfully I have found peace in the fact that the proverbial glass is not empty. The real wealth that I have is measured by the fact that I am at peace with God and with humanity in general.... Sure, there are those with whom I've had words of disagreement. But none that remain unresolved to the point of malice and ill will... At least not for me...
And if I somehow my life ended today (which, I pray that it doesn't) I'd still have a great wealth laid up in those with whom I've shared the love of God in this life....
Anyway, the shit has been flying in my head, but I'm OK... and I'm on the road to rebuilding...(God willing)
Please accept my appreciation for your generosity and support. It has been a blessing to my heart to receive your love and words of encouragement....
I'm still here....... I've just been freaking out a bit and trying like hell to get my shit back together again....
Merry Chirstmas to you all......And may God bless us.......everyone.
tadp
Quite honestly, my whole life got kinda turned around financially and it's affected alot of aspects of how my time is spent..... When you go from an environment of stability to a condition of "red alert" you spend alot of time scrambling...which is what I've been doing.... Between getting a resume' together and renewing my contacts in order to find a gig, it can be a bit unnerving and time consuming as well.. So I've been changing my hours and runnin' around like a chicken..... (u get it)....
The situation has been a bit rough, mostly because I have the emotional make-up of a poet and artist... Consequently, as these are not the most objective attributes, my turmoil becomes internalized and I worry alot..... That's just the way I am..... It sucks. But, I have a nice support network.... which includes many of you, too... Thanks.
I just didn't wish to appear unappreciative or give the impression that the company of this group is unwanted.... It's simply been something that I've needed to get worked out, both jobwise and in reference to my inner demons....
It's been 15 years since I've had concerns of these kinds.... And I didn't think I'd ever have them again.... When you've been used to living at the top of the food chain, revelations and events of this nature really do bring you down to earth again....But, the events of last few days have given (me) time to reflect on my position and provided access to a more centered perspective on what matters.... Also a better view on what's taking place around me in the lives of others...
Thankfully I have found peace in the fact that the proverbial glass is not empty. The real wealth that I have is measured by the fact that I am at peace with God and with humanity in general.... Sure, there are those with whom I've had words of disagreement. But none that remain unresolved to the point of malice and ill will... At least not for me...
And if I somehow my life ended today (which, I pray that it doesn't) I'd still have a great wealth laid up in those with whom I've shared the love of God in this life....
Anyway, the shit has been flying in my head, but I'm OK... and I'm on the road to rebuilding...(God willing)
Please accept my appreciation for your generosity and support. It has been a blessing to my heart to receive your love and words of encouragement....
I'm still here....... I've just been freaking out a bit and trying like hell to get my shit back together again....
Merry Chirstmas to you all......And may God bless us.......everyone.
tadp
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