To tell you the truth John. It is one of my dreams as well. I think Walt is a magnificent human being and he has always treated me very well. He is a true friend and a man of honor. I have never met anyone quite like him and one day I hope he makes it to a GTG so we can hang out and just talk. If the world had more people like him it would be a much better place. I thought all this before he started this thread to help. We talk on a regular basis most of the time and I always enjoy my time with him. I in fact cherish it
He has made me a better person and much more humble. I Love him like a brother and I would do anything for him, and I have when the opportunity has presented itself. This place has changed me for the better. From 4 hour long talks with Yoda, Wifey and Jerry, You, Dallas, Shawn, NBT ect.....The list of people and support has been staggering. The quality of people here is amazing. I am truly honored and humbled to be part of this place and I hope that in the future I make you all proud of me as well.
I really miss you John and Dallas as well. This is far harder then I ever thought it would be. The strain on finances of which there are none anymore is massive. But the worst part is being here w/o my family. Today was really a difficult one for me. I had to leave the house and just get away and think. I spent time with the cactus and out in the desert just sitting there. I prayed and reflected. This is a monumental task that I have under taken. To listen to my wife cry on the phone almost all the time, to hear my son lose it last night was tuff. But I just keep telling myself this is what needs to be done.
I am so greatful that I have had some help from the brotherhood. My truck to move will be paid for and that is a relief. I have also be fortunate to receive some cash that helped get me caught up on past bills. That is all gone and I am eager to start work. I will hear something hopefully tomorrow on the drug test and Background check :rock: the sooner the better that's for sure. I just cant thank everyone enough for what they have done for my family, I am in awe and I will pay it forward....I promise you all that. What a odd position I am in. The giver having to receive help
It has been pretty difficult for me to accept it, but it's a hard reality unfortunately. Sometimes you have to swallow your pride and accept help I have learned.
So I know I am long winded and this post sucked up some bandwidth but I needed to say something and I believe I did. We need the help and if at all possible if you are able to do it, we will accept everything with humility and open arms. I am not just talking Money guys........prayers and well wishes are warmly accepted and cherished. Thank You all very much for everything and for the warm heart felt well wishes. I read everything guys. I may not post about it. but I am sure Patrick can confirm this....I read everything that is posted everywhere. I love this place that he and Jack created and I Love the people.....W/o the peep's we are nothing. w/o my friends and family I am nothing......Thanks to one and all and God bless........Mikey
