As the others have said, I know what you went through and are going through missing your friend. My wife and I have had to make the decision twice. As Bob said, it is humane, but it does rip your heart out.
My wife could not be in the room with our Shelties, but I felt like I _had_ to be there. We bought our first pair about 6 months apart... one was more my dog, and one was more my wife's... didn't matter to me. When it came time for them to be put under (at different times), I just had to be in there with them. I realize once they are under anethesia they don't even know we are there... they are really asleep. But I had to wait until they had passed.
Now we have two more, and I will grieve the same when it is their time as well.
Peace to you, and I hope you are able to have another relationship with a wonderful dog in the near future. It was the only way for me to heal.
My wife could not be in the room with our Shelties, but I felt like I _had_ to be there. We bought our first pair about 6 months apart... one was more my dog, and one was more my wife's... didn't matter to me. When it came time for them to be put under (at different times), I just had to be in there with them. I realize once they are under anethesia they don't even know we are there... they are really asleep. But I had to wait until they had passed.
Now we have two more, and I will grieve the same when it is their time as well.
Peace to you, and I hope you are able to have another relationship with a wonderful dog in the near future. It was the only way for me to heal.