belgiumbarry
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after beeing 16 years together with my wife now , i left her for my "new" love... our relation got a serious "down" as i , yes, was cheating on her for 3 years with "the" love of my life , but that story ended very sad in 2004. I ended with more pain then i had enjoyed it and went to sleep and waked upp every day for years after, with a strange feeling,yes, i missed her,i was never the same anymore .And i confess, i took my wife for "granted" , she was there for householding, helped me starting my own bussines , cared for my grandkids ... but i runned into hobbys, boats, racecars, oldtimers..hiding .. coming home at "midnight" , talking on forums till 2..3 in the night.Yes, i didn't loved her anymore, couldn't walk with her anymore on the beach, the forest.. she asked, i didn't know. Got mad from time to time, i'm ashamed for the words i named her... that was not me, that was a ,drunk, broken mind. Sorry.
On 1 september i met by coincidence a very nice ,lovely, warm woman, yes, the looks of my "great" love for those 3 years, but so much more integer, wise... and we talked,talked... eyes founded eachother, hands got together... we were lost, in "love"... she kept me at a "distance" as i was a married man and herself beeing alone for 5 years now after her husband left her, afraid to be hurt again. But all went quick, 2 weeks later i confessed my feelings for her at my wife, 5 weeks later i moved.Wanted to be honest now, not cheating, showing my love i was not playing around... and she's worth it , she gives me that so goooood feeling , i'm proud on her, yes, wanne become old with her by my side. She's a wonderfull lady , also with 2 wonderfull kids, and yes.. i'm sure i give her that same feeling. So i'm happy, as never before... should be... as i have now ofcourse much to do, to change, to leave my wife in a "honorble" way , if that is even possible. All i can do is help her financel, let her live in our house, a car, work. I know, some things must change, time will tell.
And i thank God , my love understands my stress now, my problems , but doesn't doubt my feelings... thank God, she's a few years older than me,yes, i cry in her arms , happiness i feel for her, sadness for my wife ... will need some time to get it all right in my head... i found again a woman i want to shelter, help, care, love ... to be there when she needs me, to make time for her. Already doing litlle things i have never done... i'm not gonne make the same mistake again, this time i want to keep our feelings. I'm lucky.Thank God, just wondering why i deserve this ....
So yes guys, i will be here less ... but not away. We agreed to not let down friends we had in worse times... our primary time will be for eachother ofcourse but still enough left for our friends. For me, VTCoA is one great group of friends , far away , but so close in mind.
Thanks for reading this long story.... for me it's a begin , i'm one lucky bastard.
Norbert
On 1 september i met by coincidence a very nice ,lovely, warm woman, yes, the looks of my "great" love for those 3 years, but so much more integer, wise... and we talked,talked... eyes founded eachother, hands got together... we were lost, in "love"... she kept me at a "distance" as i was a married man and herself beeing alone for 5 years now after her husband left her, afraid to be hurt again. But all went quick, 2 weeks later i confessed my feelings for her at my wife, 5 weeks later i moved.Wanted to be honest now, not cheating, showing my love i was not playing around... and she's worth it , she gives me that so goooood feeling , i'm proud on her, yes, wanne become old with her by my side. She's a wonderfull lady , also with 2 wonderfull kids, and yes.. i'm sure i give her that same feeling. So i'm happy, as never before... should be... as i have now ofcourse much to do, to change, to leave my wife in a "honorble" way , if that is even possible. All i can do is help her financel, let her live in our house, a car, work. I know, some things must change, time will tell.
And i thank God , my love understands my stress now, my problems , but doesn't doubt my feelings... thank God, she's a few years older than me,yes, i cry in her arms , happiness i feel for her, sadness for my wife ... will need some time to get it all right in my head... i found again a woman i want to shelter, help, care, love ... to be there when she needs me, to make time for her. Already doing litlle things i have never done... i'm not gonne make the same mistake again, this time i want to keep our feelings. I'm lucky.Thank God, just wondering why i deserve this ....
So yes guys, i will be here less ... but not away. We agreed to not let down friends we had in worse times... our primary time will be for eachother ofcourse but still enough left for our friends. For me, VTCoA is one great group of friends , far away , but so close in mind.
Thanks for reading this long story.... for me it's a begin , i'm one lucky bastard.
Norbert
