This is the most difficult test of my life..... I will prevail with the grace of God and the love of my dear friends.....
Lynette is resting comfortably... Probably for the first time since Saturday night. Her night nurse (Charlotte RN) is awesome and I can feel the love in her... She really cares for the patients....
No real update other than the fact that they're considering every nuance and blip on the screen and they're sparing no time in providing every practical and immediate remedy..... One good thing to report is that they've managed to bring her blood pressure down quite a bit with several doses of Heprin. And they're still running antivirals and broad spectrum antibiotics IV. her temp is just slightly elevated (about 99.4)... But that room seems warm to me...
Lynette wanted me to express her sincere and deep appraciation for your continued love, support, prayers and just plain goodness by remembering her in this time of great need... And of course, your love and freindship has made more of a difference to me personally than you can imagine....
As I've mentioned so many times before, Lynette saved me from myself way back when. She has been more than a wife, friend or companion... She holds the very air that I breathe in her own body. I am absolutely devoted and in love with her.... And that's what makes this all the more excruciating....
I've been forced to face some harsh realities in the last coupl'a days. One of which is the harsh effects of loving something or someone so much that you think losing them will be the end of you altogether. And that the loss is more than you can bear..... But what's the alternative?... Not loving them so much? Not being so attached (as the Yogis say).. I don't think it's in my power to love someone less.... Love is not an exercise in thriftiness...
If my love for Lynette kills me, than I will have died for a great cause....
Thanks for the rant, y'all.....
Love, hugs and gratitude to you all......
tadp